My Tarot reading, just out of curiosity.

The significator, not shown is the card you have chosen to embody your
presence and the focus of the reading. THE MAGICIAN: Mastery over word,
mind, and matter. The ability to turn ideas into actions, handle problems,
and control one's life. The initiation of new projects, great works, or a
new way of life. Eloquent and moving communication. Arcane and eldritch
technologies. [Had to pick one, so I picked this one.]

The card not shown but at the center of the cross, represents the atmosphere
surrounding the central issue. NINE OF CUPS (Happiness), when reversed:
Vanity, conceit, and smugness in romance, friendship, or other relationships.
Achieving what you always thought you wanted. Overindulging in food, drink,
or the pleasures of the flesh. A state of joy and abundance that is shallow
and fleeting. [Probably the external perception due to going out three or
four times a month — appearance versus reality. My "reputation" as I help to
foster it.]

The card visible at the center of the cross represents the obstacle that stands
in your way – it may even be something that sounds good but is not actually to
your benefit. DEATH: A major change or transformation, possibly traumatic and
unexpected. Freedom from the shackles of the past. A new beginning. Death coupled
with rebirth, usually related to consciousness and lifestyle. [My heart condition.]

The card at the top of the cross represents your goal, or the best you can
achieve without a dramatic change of priorities. THE SUN: A time of contentment
and freedom from restraints. Creative inspiration. Achievement, success, and
warmth. Light and love in personal or business matters. Happiness and faithfulness
in a relationship. [My fiction, P.M.P.I. and — ???]

The card at the bottom of the cross represents the foundation on which
the situation is based. KING OF PENTACLES: The essence of earth behaving
as air, such as a diamond: A true businessman, with a gift for identifying
opportunities and taking advantage of them. A person well informed about
the world, skilled in all things physical, and eager to encourage others.
A pillar of practicality and dependability, embracing tried and tested
methods, and possessing an innate understanding of the material reality.
A philanthropist and devotee of both luxury and hard work, whose word is
as good as gold. [The help my mother gives me in getting things done.]

The card at the left of the cross represents a passing influence or something
to be released. KING OF WANDS, when reversed: The dark essence of fire behaving
as air, such as lightning: An exciting and reckless leader who inspires others
to irresponsible acts. An artist whose depraved love of chaos causes him to take
hold of destructive ideas and make them appealing to the masses. One who is
charismatic and intimidating, using demonstrations of his own skill to dupe others
into accepting responsibilities beyond their ability. A dashing and magnetic
personality, appearing and disappearing with great suddenness, and leaving upheaval
in his wake. [A few aquaintances of mine, perhaps.]

The card at the right of the cross represents an approaching influence or something
to be embraced. EIGHT OF WANDS (Swiftness): A sudden release of raw power, cutting
through confusion and indecision, and setting things in motion. Rapid progress towards
a desired goal, brought about by immediate and decisive action. Boldness and daring in
love, business, travel, or spiritual growth. [I'll soon be getting a defibrulator
implant — "raw power."]

The card at the base of the staff represents your role or attitude. THREE OF SWORDS
(Sorrow): Unsettling news leading to heartbreak or loneliness. Tactless or hurtful
words. Acting without consideration for the emotions of others. Betrayal of trust or
confidence. The revelation of a painful truth. [Painful emotions from my last

The card second from the bottom of the staff represents your environment and the
people you are interacting with. PAGE OF CUPS, when reversed: The dark essence of
water behaving as earth, such as a wellspring: An unexpected new relationship that
is childish and foolish. An idle dreamer oblivious to the realities of the world.
Moodiness, sad reflection, and retreat from society. Seduction and deception in
personal and business relationships. [My social life, on the few days I have
one, is not perhaps the best.]

The card second from the top of the staff represents your hopes, fears, or an
unexpected element that will come into play. SEVEN OF PENTACLES (Assessment):
A pause to check on the progress of your labors. Making difficult financial
decisions. Exercising patience and perseverance. Evaluating the status of your
work and your options for the future. [Completing the second novel; starting
the third.]

The card at the top of the staff represents the ultimate outcome should you
continue on this course. EIGHT OF CUPS (Indolence), when reversed: The realization
that a matter thought to be important was actually of little consequence. Moving
on from something in which you had invested great love and devotion. The start of
an inner journey to find higher aspects of life. Reflection on what is truly
fulfilling in life. [A new beginning after the emptiness of Seth.]

My interpretation? Take more care of my reputation. When I go out to
blow off steam that is how people see me, they don't see me here all the
majority of nights when I work and am stone cold sober. So what are they
to think? Get on with the new health matters to be dealt with and the
defibrulator, that could really launch a new time for me. Push on with
the fiction with the best effort that I can. Walk the path from Seth
through to Ra.